Nor All Your Tears

Not only is this moment as it should be, but it is as it must be -  along with our imaginings, our joys or regrets, our confidences or doubts and opinions about what is unfolding. What is cannot be anything other than that, no matter how vividly we see an alternative or wish otherwise. That's the part that is so hard to get our arms around when we do not like what is, cannot bear what is true. And our not being able to bear, our vividly wishing or wanting something else, that is part of that perfect, true, reality of here, now. You cannot stand it? That is as it must be, for what is could be no other way. And the future and past do not exist except in our imaginings. Damn it! We can only be  here  now , like it or not, feeling what we feel and thinking what we think.

And the point of seeing the moment for what it is? Freedom. Freedom to let things be the way they are, freedom to let things turn out the way they turn out including all the machinations of our mind and our feelings. We will do well or we won't. We will succeed or we will fail either gloriously or in humiliation. We will do what we must, and what is and what will be will turn out exactly as it will. Damn it! I want it to be better! I want it to turn out happily everafter! Of course I do, and that's as it must be!